Disney

I left for Disney World the day after graduation.  It was pretty fun.  I'm super glad that Kayla got to come with me, because only having guys to hang out with would have killed me.  But yea, it was pretty fun.  We stayed there for a week and went to all of the parks.  Here's some pictures for your viewing pleasure.

Orientation

I had freshman orientation for the University of Memphis on June 2-3.  I was expecting it to be super fun, because that's what I had heard from friends.  They lied.  It was very awkward and very boring.  We had to sit through hours upon hours of boring information sessions.  It was very informative,  but still boring.  It was super exciting to get to stay in the Living Learning Complex, aka LLC, since that's where I'll be living as of August 25th.  I am so excited to move in, but I'm scared and I'm gonna miss a lot of things.  I recently realized that I will no longer be able to take Ricky to and from church of Wednesdays and Sundays, since I will live 30 minutes away from him and he lives 30 minutes away from the church.  It'd be worth it, but I can't afford the gas.  I might just spend some wednesdays at home, so I can still take him home from church.  The 30 minute drive to and from church is very sentimental to us, because that is how we first go to know each other and fell in love.  I am going to really miss it, but we will still see each other. I'm  really going to miss living only 10 minutes from him, too, but it could be worse.  At least I'll only live 30 minutes instead of 3 hours.  It will be a major change, but we'll survive... hopefully.

Summer

I'm officially at the beach! I love it! It's so peaceful. I really just wanna go sit on the beach under the stars and watch the waves crash against the shore. I get to swim in the ocean for the first time in 2 years! So excited! This summer is going to fly by. It feels like just yesterday it was graduation, but now I've got disney and orientation under my belt. Disney was pretty fun. I'll write a post about it with pictures later. Orientation was insanely boring, but I got to stay in the dorm that I'll be living in this fall! That was pretty exciting. Now I'm just ready to move in, though, I will miss my family and my Ricky SO BAD!! Anyway, now i'm at youth camp, aka meltdown, in gulf shores! Yay! I'll post more soon, it's bed time.

Graduation

The most important day of a high schooler’s life... Graduation.  It is the mile marker of your entire high school career.  You wish for 4 years that it would get here, but then it just ends.  It ends in a flash.  Before you know it, high school is over.  You'll never see most of the people from your graduating class, and you’re moving out and going off to some foreign place for college.  It’s a whole new experience and it’s scary, but exhilarating all at the same time.  You have a whole new life.  You can reinvent yourself.  You don’t have to be the person you were in high school, you can change your style, your attitude, or even your name.  You may move out, or live at home; know 100 people or 1 person, but you will have at least one thing in common with every other freshman there.  We will all be scared to death of this new experience.  It’s gonna be new to all of us.  No matter how many books and blogs your read to prepare yourself, there’s nothing like the real thing.  We’re all gonna be in the same boat, just try to remember that.

Last Day of High School

Today, i woke up early, studied for my Sociology and AP Environmental Science exams, got ready, and headed to school.  It felt like any ordinary day at first.  I finished my Sociology exam in record time and finished reading Dear John after the test.  Then, I took my AP Environmental Science exam and I finished it in 5 minutes.  Then, I got my mom to email the attendance officer so I could leave early.  As I was walking down the hall to leave, I realized that I would never walk down those halls again.  It was a very bittersweet moment.  It is insane to think that I am done with high school forever.  Even as I type it, it doesn’t seem right.  I feel like a freshman still, but I’m not, I am soon to be a high school graduate.  Oh, and did I mention that graduation is in a week? I can’t wait.  Ricky will finally be all mine.  Then I leave and go to Disney World the day after graduation.  When I get back from that, I have orientation at Memphis, then church camp with Ricky, and then family vacation.  It’s all gonna fly by.  It’s already summer, but before I even realize it, I will be moving my things into my new dorm and getting ready for classes at the University of Memphis.  I’m scared to death, but I know it’ll all work out fine.  As you can tell from my pictures, I'm insanely excited!

Him

It makes me sick to think of how he treats you and what he's made you do.
It makes me sick to think that you'd get back with him after everything he's put you through.
He's taken you to Hell and back, you know it's true.
I know you think I do this because I don't care, but really it's because I do.
I love you like a sister, i wish you could see.
You  mean so much more to me.
I care more about your best interest than any stupid boy ever will.
All he can see is the right now and that's all he ever will.
I can't imagine life without you, but your decisions i do not agree with.
I want to stay by your side through everything, but, please, not this again.
Don't make me sit around and watch him break your heart again,
Because while he's breaking yours, he's breaking mine, too
It kills me to see you upset, but life will go on without him.
You've wasted so much time on him already, why can't you just let him go?
You deserve so much better.
I know that I can't see every side of him, but i can see how he has broken your heart time after time.
Why let him do it again?
You are setting yourself up for disaster and heart break.
I will never understand your repeatedly letting him break your heart.
I will never understand your decisions.
I can't stand behind you and watch your heart be broken again.
I refuse.
I do not trust him and neither should you.
We both know that's true.

Ricky

I love your gorgeous big green eyes,
And the way you kiss me when you say goodbye.
I love the way you say my name,
And how you kiss whatever is in pain.
I love the way we text all day,
But never run out of things to say.
I love your adorable curly hair,
And how you miss me when I'm not there.
I love the way you laugh, even if its at my expense.
I love the way you love me, even though it doesn't make sense.
I love the way you kiss me, and the way you hold my hand.
I love the way you always have to have a pre-made plan.
I love the way you can make me laugh, even make me cry.
I love the way you never want to have to say goodbye.
I love the way you smile,
And the way you can run for miles.
I love the way you love to spend your money on me.
I wish I could show you how much it really means.
I love the way you laugh and sing,
Really, I just love everything.